The Solemn Truth

[Deleted]

There's something I need to get off my chest. Simply put, I am also dailycolbert. I made the account because I wanted to get a fresh start where I didn't have so many enemies, but I went about it all wrong and have just made more enemies thanks to my lack of self-control and my dark side. I truly am a monster, or at least I feel like one. Not only did I say some very hurtful things to some of you, I decieved all of you into thinking something that was untrue. I simply now want to apologize to everyone, especially to Doan and raithwall, for getting out of line and breaking the rules in numerous ways. So, I'm very sorry everybody. I deserve everything you think I deserve.

Since I might be leaving here soon (depending on how angry everyone gets), I want to let everyone know that I have gained a new appreciation for life since being in chronic pain for about a year then being pain-free for about 4 months. Unfortunately, I'm back in physical pain again, but if that changes for the better, I'll once again regain that same new appreciation for life. Simply put, at least while having only CFS, one can still enjoy certain things like TV, videogames, etc. instead of not being able to enjoy anything. I think that I'll be fine in real life, so depending on how you feel about me now, you can either be relieved and/or angry about my well-being. I just want to let people know all that before I (maybe) leave again.

I can also now see that the reason Doan and raithwall argued so strongly is because they care a lot, and I have gained a better understanding of many issues in life thanks to them. For that, I thank you. You have opened my eyes to new things and made me realize quite a lot about myself and the world.

I shall take Neo's advice and make sure not to repeat this mistake. It was a grave mistake to make and one that I deeply regret. I wish nothing but the best for all of you at the Domain, regardless of what I said before while I was mad.

Once again, I'm sorry everyone and I deserve everything you think I deserve.

[raithwall]

OMG I freakin knew it. I had a feeling this was the case, and now I wish I had said something. This happens on the WoW forums all the time and I tend to have a sense for these things.

We all have our dark side.

Also, I'm kind of glad things happened the way they did and I went into the wrong here. Its no fun to be the only one who has to apologize, and I knew you would have to apologize.

Misery loves company. Honestly I was hoping I was insulting enough you'd have to come back and argue, thereby making your own previous points invalid.

But I hope you will stay, and that things will be good from here, and that eventually we can play and comment on each others games.

Heres to the future and good luck with your health.

[The Smurf]

Wow.

Sept 16, 2008 20:52:46 GMT -5 @williamkirk said:

I made the account because I wanted to get a fresh start where I didn't have so many enemies

Enemies? What enemies did you have here at the Domain? I only ever remember you fighting with Jugem - once - and I haven't seen him around for ages. I always considered you one of the most respected members of the community.

Sept 16, 2008 20:52:46 GMT -5 @williamkirk said:

Since I might be leaving here soon (depending on how angry everyone gets), I want to let everyone know that I, William Kirk, have gained a new appreciation for life since being in chronic pain for about a year then being pain-free for about 4 months. Unfortunately, I'm back in physical pain again, but if that changes for the better, I'll once again regain that same new appreciation for life. Simply put, at least while having only CFS, one can still enjoy certain things like TV, videogames, etc. instead of not being able to enjoy anything. I think that I'll be fine in real life, so depending on how you feel about me now, you can either be relieved and/or angry about my well-being. I just want to let people know all that before I (maybe) leave again.

In reference to an old post you made before your hiatus from the Domain, I'll be honest. I didn't think you'd ever come back, for the very reason you specified. I'm very happy to know that not only are you still around, but that your outlook, perspective, and even your health has changed for the better. Though many of the newer members may not know or understand what your return actually means to us, I do, and it does mean a lot.

Will, not only are you one of the founding members of the RPG Maker community, you are also the person who brought me here. You are the one who helped shape my very first game into something to be proud of. When I saw you return yesterday (or the day before, whenever it was) I immediately thought back to the hayday of the Domain, when members like Nash, Doyle, TFR, ves, christi, Bigfoot and you posted all the time. It made me remember all the fun I've had since I've been here and all the friends I've made. (As a side note, does anyone know what happened to Rodak? I miss that guy!)

I can't speak for anyone else, but I couldn't care less about you making a second account. You've always been a great member of this board, you've always been friendly to me, and that's what I care about. I can't even begin to imagine all the you've put up with. I'm just glad to see that someone from the Domain's Golden Age has come back. Hopefully you'll set a precedent: Tinbok still owes me a smurf smiley.

To your health Cheers!


-the smurf

[Doan the Nado]

I agree with everything that the smurf said, and I feel like he echoes the sentiments of all of the longtime members. Everyone deserves a second chance, and I'd be really happy to see you stay. Of course, dailycolbert will have to go

[Neo Samurai]

I must say that I am a bit surprised (though now that you've made it clear that you were dailycolbert, certain things do make a little sense now).

Poopiness, I'm not the type of guy to hold a grudge against someone who sees the fault in their past actions and tries to make a better future for themselves. I think that is very admirable. It takes a lot of guts to admit you made a mistake. You're definitely not a monster. You're a good person who just got swayed by his emotion.

Many of us have made our share of mistakes. I look back on some of the things I've done and feel some regret. But the one good thing about those experiences is that I have the knowledge that doing it again would be a mistake. Learning only helps you to grow. If we didn't make mistakes, then we would never be able to find any form of enlightenment.

I know I speak for everyone when I say we're happy to see you back and look forward to seeing you in the future.

Cheers!

Edit: Also, I'd like to recommend a book to you that may help you to keep yourself on track. It has helped me and still continues to help me to this day. It's called "Mastering Your Hidden Self" by Serge Kahili King. There's an important quote from that book, and it's "the world is what you think it is".

This might seem a bit strange to you at first, but trust me. This book has many techniques to help you to control your emotions (not to repress or get rid of them, but just feel them without being swayed by them) and to help you in your day to day life.

If it sounds too new-agey to you, don't worry. You don't need to be a spiritual person (or to even believe in a religion) to apply the techniques.

Anyway, just a suggestion.

[g]

Hey William, Guess i've found you. Poopiness makes sense as ur name. And William the Paladin brings back some memories. You sill live in the same place? I passed by roberts old house, brings back some memories figured i'd google up ur name. Knew it was you after seeing it come up as RPGmaker. Anyways you prob. know who this is. Speically w/ the initial G. Anyways give me a hollar sometime. [e-mail] Peace.

[Deleted]

Yay! Thank you so much, everybody! I'll stick around forever. ;D

And g, I sent you an email (of course I know who you are). You should have went with the comedic "Big G" for your name though, lol.

I've now ordered both books Doan recommended plus "Mastering Your Hidden Self." Hope they help! I think they will.

edit: Actually, I just found out from my Mom that "The Nature and Cause of Disease" is a chapter in "How and When to be your own Doctor", not a separate book. Either way, I got "Mastering Your Hidden Self" and "How and When to be your own Doctor" in the mail today. Too late to read them now, but tomorrow I shall start.

[Neo Samurai]

I know it's been a couple of months, but how are you liking "Mastering Your Hidden Self", Will? If you don't feel comfortable talking about it here, you can always PM me.

[Drew]

Ah hell Will, you and a few other members are keeping this forum alive, its a shame we all don't work on RPGM development anymore. But when we did this forum was filled with stuff. Sadly as much as I would love to get back into RPGM I honestly have no motivation ( also I sold my PS2 along with all my games, but thats besides the point). Anyway im not sure exactly what happened but all I wanted to say is that Will your a good guy, and as Doan said everyone deserves a second chance.

Peace